It’s been an interesting week. Here it is Saturday and I’m just now beginning to see how so many of my experiences tie together. I’m finally beginning to understand the next phase of the Inner Journey I’ve started a couple of months ago. My body and my environment are speaking to me.
On Monday, I went to the doctor with pain in my left breast. Intuitively I knew what was going on – and the answer – but since I hadn’t been to the doctor in a year, I decided to go and get checked up. The tissue was all inflamed – no lumps, gratefully. Just aggrevated by all the caffeine in my diet. Fiber cystic tissue syndrome is pretty common, and I was diagnosed with it about 25 years ago. In all this time I haven’t had much issue with it but lately, I’ve been sore.
Breasts are an interesting body part, energetically. They hover about the main area of the Heart chakra. They provide nourishment to babies, and gratification for both partners when making love. Breasts are ultimately ‘feminine’, and as a woman travels through the seasons of her life, her breasts travel with her. Their tiny buddings herald a young girls’ ripening into womanhood. We spend untold number of hours focused on them….buying just the right bra, fretting about their size (or lack of it)….wondering if we’re showing them off enough, or – in this day and age – too much. And just as we’ve hit our stride as mature women, lifted higher with wisdom born of experience, our breasts decide to take a trip South.
I realize now that my breasts were speaking to me. The last several months have been a purging of sorts for me, on an emotional and spiritual level. Lot’s of revisiting, letting go, and transcending. And I’ve felt so good! I’ve in so much peace and really feel connected with my life again. And just as the inner chatter left, my body started talking. It’s saying that it’s not enough to focus on what comes out of me as I evolve and ascend. It’s also about what I take in.
I love that. Whether it’s through food, media, sex or environment, “taking in” is ultimate Feminine energy – which, as I’ve mentioned before, seems to be the theme for my journey these days. So what better spokesperson than my breasts to call attention to my need to detoxify and clean up my diet.
It’s not a bad diet. I eat alot of raw fruits and veggies, grains and legumes. I eat low fat and low carb. But I also loved coffee, the occasional cocktail, some chocolate, and some lean poultry or fish. By most standards, it’s ‘healthy’ enough – but it’s not holistic enough. It doesn’t adequately reflect my spiritual path and leaves me feeling somewhat hypocritical. I’ve allowed myself to collect some flotsam and jetsom along the way – sort of like I had emotionally.
Tumel over at Thoughts and Things posted a video for the Bloggers Against Abuse campaign, and I just this morning made it over there to see it. And it spoke to me as well, in a powerful way. I hope you’ll take a visit, and a look. I wasn’t able to view the whole thing in one sitting, but I intend to go back and try to finish it when I feel less convicted.
So the ground has been weeded and cleared, and seeds of change have again been planted in my heart. The message is clear: It’s time to allow my inner life to be reflected even more in my outer choices. And to allow my outer choices to support and inhance my inner journey, in a more loving and nonviolent way.